how not to be

I honestly think that this world is a cruel place to live in.
Some people end their own lives because they simply can't take the ugliness.
The image is too repulsive for them to process.
These people were not taught to accept how nasty the world is.

After all, we are just a bunch of selfish people.
All we care about is our own happiness.
How many of us actually mean it when we wish someone 'Happy Birthday' or 'Good Luck' ?
How many of us sincerely wants someone else to be happy?
Maybe your parents, your best friend, your significant other, yes.
Other than that? I don't think so.
Before that, think again why do you love them?
Why do you want them to be happy?
That's solely because them being happy makes you happy, which brings us back to my previous point.

We judge people all the time.
Is it because we think they deserve to be judged?
No. Most of them don't.
We barely know the people we judge and yet we do it anyway.
Why? Because it fucking makes us happy.
In another word, it makes us feel better about ourselves.
Pointing out someone else's flaws so that society overlook our own flaws, which in turn amplifies your flaws.

Now how do we do this?
Humans.. we are complicated.
All our lives, we seek happiness.
And what do we do when happiness is in our hands?
We throw them away.
Then we start the whole ranting and complaining routine, saying that we never deserved happiness.
In the whole process, we never really bothered looking if we found the real happiness because we are too busy reaching the ones further.
In short, we are too self-centered that we sometimes disregard ourselves.

'Cause a kind heart is useless; it's a flaw in this world.