everything has changed

As much as I'm reluctant to admit this, it is crystal clear that everything is no longer the same anymore.
This little circle of friendship may be chained strongly but again, life is a bitch.
We can no more be there for one another, holding each other's back just to make sure the other party feels better.
It's not about 'not making time'.
It's 'not being able to make time'.
I can now finally understand why is it so difficult for high school leavers to organise a gathering.
When we were in school, we see each other at least 5 days a week.
Some weeks if we're lucky, we spend each day of the week together.
If we can't be there for a friend at that moment, we will eventually meet the following day.
Catching-ups were never this hard that everything else you're doing feels like a burden.

Things change and friends leave and life doesn't stop for anybody.

hatred

My thoughts exactly.

How can I hate and love you so much at the same time?
I hate the way you push me away and come back making me feel like I was the only one.
I hate it when you smile at me, telling me everything is going to be fine.
I hate that you wipe my tears away when you're the reason behind it.
Most of all, I just hate the way you made me fell helplessly for you.

updates

Hello.
I know I haven't updated this space for quite some time.
My last post was about two to three weeks ago.
I know I only have a few readers but I still feel obliged to keep writing.
Almost everyday, I tell myself I must blog but due to work, I hardly have any time for myself.
Days when I don't need to work, I spend them with my friends or family.
Even some days when I work in the evenings, I still spend them with people I care about.
When I get home at night, I'm already too tired and exhausted to blog.
For all I know, I'm not even active on my favourite social platform ( Twitter ) anymore.
Of course, I am not complaining at all.
I'd rather be busy, tired and have limited time for myself than just staying at home all day and night.
Promise you I'll blog about work on the next post.
Oh and I've sort of decided where I'm gonna further my studies and what I'm gonna do.
Although I'm not 100% sure this is what I want but it is close enough.
Till then, xx

updates

Oh hello.
It has been a long hiatus, hasn't it?
My last post has been like what, 10 days ago?
Now that SPM has ended I should be blogging more often and all that but somehow it's the other way round.

It's almost a week since SPM ended and so far nothing much has happened.
Partied on the night with my closest friends and I have to say, I had fun even though things didn't turn out like how it was supposed to.
Went out for Catching Fire and thankfully, it was better than the book and I cried throughout the movie which was really nothing new if you know me well enough.
Looked for a job on Monday morning with mum at JJ and applied for two of them, Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf and Chatime.
Before the search, I was actually quite eager to get a place in Chatime.
Well, you know, the ice blending and pearls shit are uber cool to me okay.
After I went for walk-in interview for both, I thought I have a higher chance of getting a place in CBTL.
Turned out that both called me that night but I said yes to CBTL.
Will be starting work later at 2pm and I don't really know what to expect because I wasn't informed about anything at all except my attire and my working time for today.
No idea what's my pay, working schedule and etc.
I'll be working at JJ's CBTL for now - just for training, I guess - then they'll put me in the newly opened one at The Parade or Ipoh Parade.
More updates on the next post, I promise :)