not good enough

Surrounded by people who outshine me all the time is no fun at all.
They may be my friends and my loved ones but being the last one whom anyone will look at every single time hurts.
I do not have a hot body, a great humour, an above average face and heck, I don't even know how to socialise.
The only thing I am good at is saying mean things because I don't hide my real feelings.
Some call this being real, being myself but to me this is a weakness.
Nobody wants to hear anything bad about themselves especially not straight on the face.
Nobody cares unless it's a compliment.
I wish I could love myself more but it seems like I will never be good enough.

trap

Do you remember when your parents told you to not date at such a young age?
Have you ever wondered how would it be right now if you actually listened?
As a teenager, it is really easy to infatuate with someone.
You may think you are in love when it is just admiration.
How do you even know if that is love you are feeling in the first place?
You were not taught on how to handle love when it happens to you.
Hence, you do the most relevant thing by getting into a relationship without knowing it is all a trap.
A trap where you will be scarred for life.
As peripheral as this may sound, love is not always about having.

Do you love him because you need him or do you need him because you love him?