maybe, just maybe

Hello guys.

It's been a really long and tiring week for me in school and I thought that it's good for me to lash out my soreness here ;)

Actually I should be studying right now since mid-year exams are just three weeks or less away but I'm stopping myself from doing so.

I don't know why but I still don't feel the urge to study.

Not forgetting that I do wanna score my exams, like badly.

Okay, maybe I'll try to do something about it after this post.

We'll see ;)

Anyway, this week has been quite a lonely week for me.

You know, sometimes people whom you love drifts away from you while people who you don't really give a damn about, stays.

Is it always this way or is it just me?

Well, I don't really have much friends.

I mean, yes, I have a few friends who I can hang out with when I want to(not all the time actually)

But sometimes, I want something more.

Something more as in, I want someone who'd always be there for me.

Someone who'd sacrifice things for me.

I try to be a good friend for my friends.

I do, I really do.

Maybe because I realize that I'm not the 'joker' of the bunch neither the 'drama-queen'.

I'm just plain.

I'm not the type who can easily cheer people up with the slightest thing I do.

I have to put in a lot to show my friends that I'm really true in our friendship.

And yes, I've got to admit I'm really afraid of losing my friends.

Mainly because I don't have many and that is why I treasure them.